Into the Oven (and Hopefully Out Again)

July 22, 2010

in the generous life

Life has been pretty rough around my house lately (a lot of circumstantial pressures).  It’s been very self revealing as pressure tends to push heart issues to the surface.  I was very pleased to see that it was relatively easy for me not to get fussy with my husband and son (years of practice of speaking kindly), but I was somewhat disheartened to see myself shut down emotionally a bit.  It just meant that I wasn’t as available to my family and friends as I would have liked to be. That I noticed it was a good thing and I’ll be giving it some thought and prayer.  How can I handle this differently next time?

A while back I would have been very upset with myself.  More and more, though, I see growing up in the Lord as a journey, an ongoing work of God in my life.  This time of pressure is just a gauge, a time and place where I can see where I’ve grown and where I have yet to grow.  I’m learning to offer myself a bit of grace and, in the learning, I am reminded of how my husband and others could benefit from the same kind of grace and patience.  Another gift from my time in the oven.

My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience.  But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.  James 1:2-3  NKJV

Be generous!  Lori <><

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Amber July 22, 2010 at 3:02 am

I’ve often told my husband that our walk with the Lord is literally “climbing the mountain of God. We have to keep pushing upward, as difficult and exhausting as it may be, and often times we feel like giving up. It is those times, that if we reach up just once more, we will see that God has provided a ledge for us to rest upon as we gather our strength until we are able to move on. God always grants us times of peace after we’ve gone through testing, stretching, and growing periods, so that we can reflect on our progress thus far…so we can see how far up the mountain of God we’ve gotten. It’s important not to give up, although He will catch us if we let go, but if we just keep pushing forward He will give us rest. Just wanted to share. Thank you for all you do!

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April July 22, 2010 at 7:48 am

This is just on point with that i’ve been reading and discovering lately. I’m reading this book that my sister’s counselor referred to her, and I think it is just amazing. I’m glued to it and can’t wait to finish it. It’s full of a lot of information regarding a woman’s brain and how it works. :) During all those crazy times, when we wonder “what is going on with me?!?” this book helps to give insight to those times. It’s called “Women’s Moods” And, of course, I left it at home today so I don’t know the author but the book I have is green. It’s written by two women. I’m more than halfway through, and granted some of the stuff does not pertain to me but it’s always good information to have to help others. :) I’ve even used some of it already for fitness related information because it all carries over (I’m a Group Fitness Instructor, and personal trainer in training!)

Enjoy!

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Virginia July 22, 2010 at 3:03 pm

I’ve also noticed the tendency to withdraw within myself when exhausted and overwhelmed. The scary part is that it can extend even to my relationship with God, to where I’d love to fellowship with Him, but I don’t have the energy to make it happen or even to care that it’s not!
I agree that realizing it is the first step. I want to learn to lean even more heavily on Him for strength in tough times and draw on Him for energy to care for/about Him, my husband, and my son.

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Valerie J July 27, 2010 at 6:41 pm

Thanks for sharing and being transparent. I get grumpy wHen I am tired and in the past I have been told to “go to bed”. Now I know to go to bed and everything will look different in the morning.

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