Life has been pretty rough around my house lately (a lot of circumstantial pressures). It’s been very self revealing as pressure tends to push heart issues to the surface. I was very pleased to see that it was relatively easy for me not to get fussy with my husband and son (years of practice of speaking kindly), but I was somewhat disheartened to see myself shut down emotionally a bit. It just meant that I wasn’t as available to my family and friends as I would have liked to be. That I noticed it was a good thing and I’ll be giving it some thought and prayer. How can I handle this differently next time?
A while back I would have been very upset with myself. More and more, though, I see growing up in the Lord as a journey, an ongoing work of God in my life. This time of pressure is just a gauge, a time and place where I can see where I’ve grown and where I have yet to grow. I’m learning to offer myself a bit of grace and, in the learning, I am reminded of how my husband and others could benefit from the same kind of grace and patience. Another gift from my time in the oven.
My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing. James 1:2-3 NKJV
Be generous! Lori <><